Death is the final answer for evry hatred

In my neighborhood There is one dairy called Sri Ram Dairy.I used to take one Amol milk packet from them. I used to find to one old guy sitting in the dairy. He was annoying because he would ask for change without change he would refuse to give anything and he never talked nicely as other shopkeepers do for me he was lethargic. I had encountered situation when i had to take Amol from the other shops.So taking lesson from those incident I decided i would not take anything from that shop.Yesterday I had gone to buy ,as usual i ignored that shop, he was sitting there (I knew that old person also hated me because last time i had change in my pocket still i returned from his shop showing my visible annoyance and took the milk packet from other shop beside his shop). Today my cook told that old person has died due to heart attack, remorsefully I felt sympathy and thought why we need to hate any person when we don't know when we will be gone from this world. I hope that i won't hate anybody anymore.

After Watching Forest Gump

Hi me,

I was just watching "Forest Gump" AGAIN. I am feeling so good ,I decided to write down my feelings. I am jotting down because i want to capture these beautiful moments.
Forest Gump, (" Stupid is as stupid does") stupid by the standards of Normal people, doesn't know how to find ways for doing anything .He does what he is told and keeps doing that.
He becomes a sign of hope ,HE DOES NOT KNOW THAT.
In one scene he was running for two years and reporters were guessing why he is running . He was saying that i was running for no particular reason.Wait i can draw some similarity....... If i think that when i enjoyed most, i feel that when i had no particular reason for doing that work( you can say irrational).

I always hated when people do crazy things(when my mind couldn't find any reason for that thing), now i feel that i have desire to do the same. By applying logics i trained my mind so much that i can give so many reasons for not doing particular thing and find what is the alternative for that. Now i feel that boy you should just do it. I wasted so much time thinking what to do and what not to do, Instead i had completed all the things . Next time i will just do it.

Love (I don't know whether my feelings will come under love, i am just giving a name) happens for no particular reason,I just feel uneasy as my mind always tells me so many reasons and consequences why i should not fall for that feeling.
I want to get away with this uneasy feeling.It doesn't let me do my logical jobs.Maybe i want to do it.

Regards,
Me

Random thoughts

After the great responses about my last post which i had to remove as i was on the wrong side of story (contrast to my image).Again i am going to put some random thoughts together, let us see how things will turn out .

ok,this is the time when i am suppose to complete one program which i am trying to start from past two days.,but i am lazy enough to start thinking abt program .After wasting 2-3 days i thought of writing something.

This time i am thinking wat i should write: serious or comic or mixture.But first i should decide about topic :controversial or simple.
No,I should try hand on some other genre ,Story............yes ,well about whom no.........i can't think a topic . ok i got a topic . My one friend who has won many accolades in literature says that good story is nothing but good observation what is happening around you.So i will be putting my observation only.
a) Warning (serious one ): When you see children playing ,they seems to be very happy.One reason i can think of is that their emotions are pure .If they love ,they just love ,they don't put reasons behind their love. If they hate ,they just hate and there is no emotion in between.
They are simple. It is because of selfishness of a child .They seek whole ,no division .When their mother takes some other child in her lap ,they will cry because they don't want to share their mother's love with anyone. This selfishness helps children to decide exactly what they want.now i wants to be happy maybe i should practice this form of selfishness.

b) I remember when my mother used to give us any fruit(equally devided),then there was always comptition who is going to finish last because he will be the one who can enjoy a lot because he can make us jealous (feeling of triumph).Now i just want to eat as quickly as possible.

c) Today when i get a lot of money to spend on myself,I think of second standard when i had stolen 50 paisa to have a ice cream.My father caught and gave me one ruppee.Having icecream of one ruppee ,I was the happiest child of universe. Today when i get icecream worth of 300.i feel nothing .

d)what can you get from a broken relationship :
1)Some good moments
2)Maturity
3)A new way to see the things
4)New goals or opportunities (or you can be back on ur track)
5) A chance to learn value of money ,time and your friends

e)I remember in 11th class when in coaching a girl asked me about whether there is lecture or not .I fumbled and she just smiled back . I remember how happy i was when she asked from my math teacher who got highest marks,then he told my name and she looked at me and smiled.
I remember myself seeing towards her window with a hope of seeing one glimpse of her. I remember how proud i was feeling when my friends were telling me "tere per marti hai yaar",then their conclusion that how smart i am.I remember seeing towards her, hoping she will also look at me.I remember that my friend is saying " go and propose her" and then my decision that i will propose her when i will get selection in JEE. I remember last day of my coaching class how sad she was.
now lastly I remember myself searching her in orkut..........................

f) Waking up in morning ,then going into balcony and seeing that monkeys are jumping and chasing each other.Wishing to capture each and every moment of their play and suddenly realising i have to do some important work. then again a new wish"sitting alone in beach and thinking nothing".

g)What do i want from my life ?

continuing my trip............

So maybe you have already read writer's first post in which he has a given a glimpse of genesis of historical event.After first impulse ,which has time period of one year, a second impulse came again when his senior batch has gone second time again for industrial tour.Industrial tour defies its normal definition in IIT, it means a tour funded by department .But do you think department is foolish enough to give a lump sum money 50,000( perhaps less) .Actually it has taken 1000/-Rs only per student for industrial tour in the beginning of second year .So in a class 80 students dept has accumulated 80,000-/Rs only + 14,400-/Rs only at the rate 9% (as a result of simple interest calculation) total 94,400-/Rs only(you must be wondering why i am taking care of minor details like "Rs only" because in IIT A number which is less than 6 lac always comes with "Rs only" suffix.It has nothing to do with banking norms) .So industrial tour is an effort to take back their money.Here, people are always aware of their rights but why most of the people fail to justify their rights, it is matter of political dissucussion ,let writer come back on main topic. He will put light later (remind him he has short memory).In 3rd year some of his colleagues put a lot effort for making this effort happen .Alas,they stumbled again due one technical difficulty .Actually trip requires two professors who will guide them during industrial tour.But here they fail due to short of one step,which they are lagging from their senior batch actually they have already booked two teachers to whom they think they can go with them.eventually they have lost chance to make equal to their seniors .Their seniors have taken laurels by taking back whole money (may be more than 94,400-/Rs only).Now,writer will shortly talk about third impulse which will come after one year .But before he wants us to know about purpose of this industrial tour.a)
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Pilot- prologue-shimla trip

After so much talking about blogging a person is about to start writing its blog and u are witnessing history because he has put a lot effort(is shortening the period of his sleep and killing his desire to make a world record in seeing the number of movie he has seen) for writing down his valuable thoughts over which whole world will feel thrilled because he is transcending the barriers of thinking process.But initially he wants to make a disclaimer "If my thoughts are similar to someone (living or dead ) this will be mere coincidence."
Writer is engineering student in some IIT his look gives feeling if he is either ghissu or Shrabi who is always sleeping .But he thinks he is smart enough to make any girl jealous because he is smarter than her boyfriend. (Assumption If any girl thinks about any guy then that guy is her boyfriend because if any guy thinks about any girl then he assumes her as his future girlfriend ,as per rule in IIT according to this rule he has 100s of girlfriend). Any way writer donot want reveal all secrets in one go he wants us to be patient .

So this trip saga has started in 2nd year second semester when his senior batch has gone for its industrial tour but that was an impulse or you can say a wish to go ahead one step from our senior batch anyway that was a simple impulse whose time period is one year. Continue...........